I haven't blogged in quite awhile and I learned a very important lesson today so I thought I'd share it with you guys.


Theres this guy that I've been head over heels with for awhile now and I'd go way out of my way just to talk with him. He intrigued me, there was definetly a mystery to him. So being the girl I am I told all my friends that I was crushing on him, pointed him out to my mom in the yearbook, invited him to church, anything I possibly could. I loved talking about him. So then I find out he has a girlfriend. My initial response was a painful stare of unbelief and then turned into an even more painful sinking in of the truth. As tragic as it was at the time, I've now realized that its not that big of a deal and that life goes on. It may not seem like a big realization but it was huge for me. I had to walk down the hall thinking about all the good things going on just to keep myself from crying. I was hurt. So yeah, the lesson in all of this for me was to guard my heart. I was pretty much asking for him to step on my heart, I was sticking it right underneath his foot. He's someone I barely know, who barely knows me, and put my self in a very vulnerable position. I'm not sure what guarding my heart looks like, but I'm pretty sure I know a few things I would go back and change..

anyways, I guess you guys can learn from my mistake..